part 33 whats better than loving one daughter ?? well loving 2 of corse

Hi guys

Hi guys, it’s been so so long since I last blogged, been so so busy gallivanting and living a little.  I have had the best few months taking a break from being in the hole scratchers elite wrestling ring, and you know what, I bloody needed it.

I dragged my hubby and daughter crazy Jane off to Rome for a 4 day mini break.  We had a great time and actually got to do that thing I hear you all talk about, sleep, yes I slept, now I know why you all rave about it so much lol, it was as wonderful as you made it sound lol.

So over the last few months you know I won a major battle with the elite services regarding crazy, now I still have major battles ahead and have refreshed enough to start wrestling them again and giving it welly to a person or two and I actually cant wait to give it to them lol but I have also revisited decisions I made a few years ago.

Before Lunatic john was born I decided to fulfil a life long dream I’ve had since I was a very young girl, but then Lunatic John came along and put it in the not for now pile.  I have always regretted not having a child closer in age to Crazy Jane, I should have and was always the plan but she was just too hard to manage that introducing a child to either one of us would have been so unfair all round.  Before Lunatic was born I again wanted to add to our family but the surprise of being pregnant with him was enough to be taking on for that time. 

 I have decided to adopt a child from a country I have great friends from and great respect for Brazil.   I will of Corse be hoping to adopt a young girl aged between 7 and 9 years of age, why because I can get pregnant, I can have babies, I have had the good fortune of doing both, there are couples who cannot and a baby is the perfect age for them to adopt.  I on the other hand, have decided that I’m done with babies and toddlers; I have a lot of love to give and time to devote to an older child with the experience and training to support this age group.  My daughter will have a sister close to her age which she has always dreamed of and our family dynamic will not change, Crazy the oldest, our beautiful new addition the second oldest, Mr Fab the middle child and Lunatic the youngest, PERFECT.  I will also have my dream 4 children of 2 boys and 2 girls, again PERFECT.

Now of Corse, its not all perfect, as I have to do courses, be assessed and valuated, my personal, family and marriage life ripped to shreds by social workers to judge us, make the decision on if we can adopt for us blab bla and of Corse, just to add to the stress, the recent referral Doc Prick made to Social regarding me and Crazy will undoubtedly cause us no ends of stress, heart ache and just annoyance, but can I take it on, haha sure I can, its me after all.

So I’m off to Brazil to hand over all of my personal documents, cert’s, qualifications, bank details, photos, references etc in November to get ball rolling brazil side, sometimes it’s the country your adopting from who hold it all up and delay it, but I’m hoping to jump that gun at least, you know me, over organised and on the ball, it’s the only way to be lol

So that’s my news, I’m really looking forward to Brazil and dreading visiting their local children’s homes as I’ll find it hard to leave those children behind me and will probably try smuggle them all out lol but yea that will kill me, I’m not sure how prepared I am for this part of it all, I’m not one for leaving a pet shop empty handed, can you imagine a children’s home, It will kill me.

But in the mean time I’m learning all I can, preparing all I can, contacting all I can, and redesigning Crazy’s room to fit my 2 beautiful daughters, I know I’m going to have a 2/3 year wait for her, but I want everything to be perfect for when she is here with us.  Thankfully I have 2 cousins with adopted overseas children and there is adoption from my hubby’s side too so we are well prepared with a lot of support.

My friends and family are hugely supporting my decision and are excited about it all, especially my mum.  I have people so happy to write references for us and one came through the door this morning from a woman I hugely respect, it really said all I could wish to hear about myself  and my family in her reference and I am just overwhelmed by it,

And just in time, the winter vomiting bug has hit the house, lovely, a few pounds dropped for my hols without even trying and a good week before I fly out, bliss

But if only the room didn’t spin when I stood up and the loo wasn’t my best friend right now be even better, paracetamol and motilium anyone, I have plenty J)